High Hopes 2/20/19

Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing
Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision
Always had high, high hopes
Had to have high, high hopes for a living
Didn't know how but I always had a feeling
I was gonna be that one in a million
Always had high, high hopes

Can't help but read back through this entire blog and see from where we started until now. High Hopes. I had very high hopes that we were going to make it big time. Man, I'm exhausted just reading and remembering all we did in the beginning. 3 years in Pignon, Haiti. 733 loans given out in that time frame affecting over 3,000 dependents. That's good. Now comes tomorrow. Alisha and I haven't seen each other in over 2 years and we haven't seen Nick since 2015. And we fly into Tampa to see him and we will sit down with him and tell him Open Hand is done. We are finished. How are we going to tell him? He's been with us from the beginning. He is a good man. He loves his people and I'm amazed that he could chose to live in the United States and yet wants to be in Haiti. Life isn't easy in Haiti. Between the riots, the lack of food and water.. it's a hard life. That he is willingly choosing. How does it not look like we are abandoning him?  I don't know. Why isn't the passion there anymore? Is it because we've been so far removed literally and figuratively? The method works. Without us. On Friday we will present our ideas to Nick as to how we can close out Open Hand. We have money still to give and want to give it to him to continue the loans or maybe even start a business of his own.

Do you know what he told Ty about a month ago? He told Ty that he doesn't have any kids yet but that, "Lisa will know because she will be the godmother." I died a little when Ty told me that.