All Aboard the Cra Cra Train

It's days like today when I think what we are doing is nuts. If we were on a train, I'd be the conductor of crazy or the co-conductor. Is that a role? Shuffling our sons to school, making lunches, testing our ability to be Betty Crockeresque (making tiny cupcakes for our event this weekend), being a full time Mom, making dinner, being a full time wife and as I'm in the midst of 'life' I stop and think, "crap. We need 100,000 dollars." It brings everything back into perspective. First off, who in the right mind decides to make their life more hectic and crazy? Me. That's who. I can't be content with my awesome family, my great house, my 'it's a wonderful life' because there is an entire generation of people dying from hunger and being sold into slavery, and having to decide which child they will sell in order to feed the rest. Not saying being content with your life is a bad thing but for some reason I want something more. I want to make a difference.

A normal person would just try and assimilate into life. Not me. Apparently I like a challenge because this will be the most challenging thing I have ever done in my life. Pushing out a baby when my epidural wore out? Minute compared to the task of raising 100,000 and having thousands of lives waiting in the balance for you to produce the money they need to take care of their families. And it's not just raising the money... that's hard enough, it's raising the money with a deadline. June 1st. That's it.  Put up or shut up.  Show me the money or go home. Out like a fat kid playing dodge ball... you get the idea. And I almost think it would be just like God to wait until May 31st for the money to come in. But He must know that this is so stressful, that tossing and turning at night and worrying about the money isn't healthy but there's a part of me that thinks we HAVE to be doing something more. I need more hours in the day. If I could just get in front of so and so surely they would want to be a passenger on this train! I'm telling you one thing - when we go to do this again in whatever continent we are on, no more hard deadlines. We'll raise the money and then give it out. This is way too much for two stay at home wives and mothers to do by themselves. I know God is with us. I know He will fight for us but we still have to do our part. And I feel like there's something more we could be doing but I don't know what. Neither of us wants to neglect our family for the sake of the call. Not.gonna.happen. I've got nothing more to say today except ALL ABOARD THE CRAZY TRAIN DESTINATION AWESOMENESS.

I will leave you with one final picture. Note: We are the frog.